Trials and Blessings

My heart is broken, and I'm not sure that I have the words to describe the feeling.  Today I found out that my cousin and her husband's chances of conceiving a child together are very low.  They have been trying for a year and a half with no luck.  I too, just like Jessica, have wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember.  I have been blessed with the ability to conceive a child with Park, and until today I didn't realize just how much that blessing really means to me. 

Jessica and Jared's faith and strength in the face of this unbelievably difficult trial does nothing short of amaze me.  It makes me question my own faith in my Heavenly Father and His plan for me.  Am I strong enough to handle the trials He is going to give me?  Will I be able to handle it with as much faith and hope as they have?  It is so hard for me to understand why Heavenly Father gives us the trials he does.  But...it is His plan, not mine.  I know He knows me...my strengths...my weaknesses...and no matter what mountains I have to climb in this life, he will be right behind me every step of the way. 

Click here http://jandjjohns.blogspot.com/2010/09/our-story.html to read Jessica and Jared's story.